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A collection of evidence in support of simulation theory.

A Fate Worse than Death

2019-12-31 :: The Ink
Type: Digital,  Direct,  Testimonial,  Threat: Identity,  Influence,  Leverage,  Manipulation,  Surveillance,  Organization: Hickory Trail Hospital,  PornHub,  Confidant: The Raven,  #Baseball  #History-Revision  #Slavery  #Tongue  #Verification 
The Machine leaves me for dead.

Left for dead⌗

ACTION⌗

Having failed to talk my way out of the mental health clinic, I would submit to their demands. I would take their anti-psychotic medication, even though it was unjustified.

ANALYSIS⌗

This medication would throw me into the worst depression I’ve ever been in. Each passing day filled me with dread and remorse. Not only had I sacrificed a career and my independence, but I had lost someone that I loved.

The Raven wasn’t real. She was a delusion. I wasn’t important. I was nobody. I had schizophrenia. Things were only going to get worse from here.

It felt as if my soul had been ripped from my body. I could not find a reason to live.

As you can see from the lack of activity here, I did nothing but sleep for almost 5 months straight.

While awake, I fantasized about killing myself.

The expected result⌗

ACTION⌗

With nothing to live for, I fell back to old habits. It wasn’t satisfying - the medication made me barely functional - but it was a brief distraction among the darkest days of my life.

SIGNAL⌗

They would manipulate my pornography during this period thrice. Remember, verification happens in multiples of three.

ACTION⌗

Over the years, there were a common three “kinks” I returned to. Each was hinted at in this story.

What matters is this:

  1. In the past, I torrented a siterip from one particular actress. I had seen every video.
  2. I had also scoured the clearnet for one particular genre. It had been a long time since I saw anything new.
  3. More than 5 years ago, I watched one particular video that I would never forget. Not long after, and many other times over the years, I would search for this video - but I would never find it again. I knew exactly where to look, and what to look for - but it had been removed. I had searched every result, never able to find it again.

SIGNAL⌗

During this period of depression, the researchers watching me would manipulate all three of these genres.

  1. I would search PornHub for this actress, and I would find a video that I had never seen before. It was brand-new to me. It was not a part of the original siterip. After just one view - a few days later - it had been removed.
  2. I would search PornHub for this particular genre. I would also find something new. Like before, it was removed a few days later - after just one view.
  3. Finally, I would search Beeg for this video I had already searched for a dozen times over more than 5 years. I would immediately find it. It was right there, at the very beginning of its genre. Right where I had already searched a half dozen times. They had restored the deleted video I had spent so long looking for.

ANALYSIS⌗

All of this was compelling, but it didn’t bring me out of my depression.

That took The Raven.

I will not make this mistake twice. I have seen too much at this point. There is no excuse to justify exploring that rabbit hole ever again.

If not for The Raven, then for the thousands of women exploited by a capitalistic society that cares more about a person’s ability to work than their personal happiness and dignity.