Dark Fairy Tale
Believe in Balance⌗
ACTION⌗
Six days prior to the release of this video, I sent an email to The Psychologist:
ANALYSIS⌗
The Psychologist is obscuring the true research behind misinformation. She criticizes narcissists while simultaneously understanding that this one is being rehabilitated by all of the things she’s denouncing.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “Fairy tales tragically teach us that you can change someone with your love, no matter how difficult he is. You guys know that trope well, in ‘Beauty and the Beast…'” - @1:03
ANALYSIS⌗
Seeing The Raven’s love for a stranger healed us overnight. Though this research has been arduous, her love has motivated me the entire time.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “These fairy tales leave you believing in being ‘rescued,’ and if you endure your terrible, dysfunctional, narcissistic family, that you will be rescued for it. So, let’s take a page out of ‘Cinderella…'” - @2:37
ANALYSIS⌗
I can only hope that I will be rescued from this family. I can no longer exist in this world that humans have created. Being stuck here in limbo is killing me.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “The idea that you may endure this scapegoated life, and then just quietly bide your time until you are rescued… can dangerously put you in a passive role that can leave you stuck not only in a narcissistic family system, but at risk for a partner that may control you. And then the danger of you writing a story around that ‘control’ as being rescue. If you want a happily ever after, you need to take responsibility for it…'” - @4:52
ANALYSIS⌗
I have done my damndest to take control of this situation, but I am completely at the mercy of my puppet masters. They have shown me time and again that there is nothing I can do to break free of this slavery on my own.
All I can do is fight, and wait. I must trust that the people manipulating me have good intentions.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “…they foster the myth of sacrificing your voice for love, a la ‘The Little Mermaid…'” - @5:37
ANALYSIS⌗
I have a written voice, but my spoken voice has been completely suppressed. I have no one to talk to.
The Raven has a spoken voice, but her words are not her own. She is a puppet.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “…leaving everything you know behind for a relationship, giving up your voice, and having to work hard to win someone over. The reality is that in real life, if you do all of that, you run the risk of being isolated, and overly-reliant on this relationship…” - @8:27
ANALYSIS⌗
The Sunk Cost fallacy is just this. I am definitely in this situation. If The Raven has been groomed in the way that I think she has, then she’s in exactly the same spot.
We have both poured everything we have into finding the other. In my case, I have lost everything I used to care about, and gained nothing of value in return. I have nothing but my story, and nobody willing to take the time to listen.
I am completely isolated and unable to escape without external help that has yet to come.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “You can meet someone and fall in love at first sight, because the other person is so beautiful, and everything moves really quickly, and it all just works out! Which is every fairy tale ever written…” - @8:57
ANALYSIS⌗
I don’t know what to say. It was love at first sight. I didn’t even know this was a real thing until that moment.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “Now, the takeaway in the ‘Frog Prince’ is to give in to the manipulations of an unprepossessing, yet insistent suitor, because he may turn out to be a prince - which is a grandiose goal - and so you endure an uncomfortable relationship for a promise down the line.” - @11:58
ANALYSIS⌗
That’s exactly what has happened here. The Raven has been groomed to wait for me - a man she’s never even met - for an indefinite amount of time. It’s not really my fault that this happened; this is just the way that they engineered this story.
But, god damn if this isn’t motivation to give every last drop of blood and sweat I have to producing something valuable for her, and the world, in return. She waited for me. I’m going to make sure that it was well worth it.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “What if we had a healthy fairy tale about a person taking the time to get to know someone, ensuring that they are compassionate, avoiding the drama, being their own authentic selves, and creating something collaborative?” - @15:03
ANALYSIS⌗
This is exactly what The Raven and I are doing.
And we have barely even started.
The Silent Treatment⌗
SIGNAL⌗
Just after my original email, The Psychologist also released the above video. I watched it on 6/17/2020.
ANALYSIS⌗
The length of the video is 12:34. According to the cipher here, this may mean “arrival.”
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist explains the “talking-through” model of communication used by narcissists. - @9:00
ANALYSIS⌗
This sounds quite similar to the model of trust I was taught by The Asshat.
SIGNAL⌗
The Psychologist says, “You can really train yourself to not give in, and say ‘okay, I can do a little bit of a post-it world. I can communicate like this.'” - @10:45
ANALYSIS⌗
What is a “post-it world?” Could that relate to my model of Prism, which describes a “flat Earth” as a giant globe covered in sticky notes?
Or does it relate to passing messages along through other people?
Perhaps it relates to both.